It’s hard for me to sit down at my laptop and begin writing today. This has been an incredibly difficult week for our family. So difficult and personal, that it’s too tender to even share.
I will tell you, that my health is fine and so is my marriage. It’s not me personally but someone very close to me that has been deeply hurt and wounded. It has devastated us all.
This week, I have felt like my heart has been taken out of my chest and stomped on. The pain at moments has been almost unbearable and yet I know God is working even as I am writing this.
Is he refining me? Yes. Is he wanting to see if I love him, really love him, as much as I say I do. Probably.
2 Corinthians 4:17-18 says, For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
I’m so thankful the troubles we go through in this life are temporary. The pain and hurt will lessen over time. I choose to fix my eyes on Jesus, I know I need Him!
This song says perfectly what I’ve been feeling this week.
(I know I have not answered all your questions and emails this week, I will try my best to get caught up.)
Have a blessed day!
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So sorry you and your family is going through this difficult time. I’ll be praying for you!
Praying for you and your family.
So sorry to hear that you are hurting. Prayers Lifted Up.
It’s during these painful times that we cling to Jesus and He surrounds us with His presence and love. Holding you up in prayer!
Praying that you and your family feel God’s arms wrapped around you as you go thru this difficult time.
I hope you feel everyone’s prayers. I pray for your strength, strength for your loved one, and God’s wisdom.
I think seeing those we love in pain is so much harder than experiencing it ourselves. It’s so easy to feel helpless, but I’m sure your love is a powerful support. You’re too funny to even think about answering our comments with all you have going on right now. Focus on those who really need it. Just reading your posts everyday make mine a little happier. You seem to have such a sweet heart, so I’m sorry to hear you’re in pain. CTD
Praying for you and your family. Than you for sharing the scripture and quotes. You have helped many others who need them now or will in the future.
I always enjoy reading your posts but today you gave another example of living your faith when you posted “too tender to share”. It takes true class to resist the temptation to tell the world everything going on in our lives even with the best of intentions at heart, asking many to include our suffering loved ones in prayer. Some things in this world are just meant to be private and can remain so forever. I have to tell you that I always look forward to seeing outfits you choose to wear but today’s choice is by far my favorite…class and loyalty look beautiful on you and fit you well. God’s peace to you and those you love.
Sorry so for your pain. I’m praying for you and your family.
Dear Cyndi,
I am sorry you are hurting. I am praying for you and your family.
You are loved 🙂
We all must go through the shadows so we can appreciate the sunshine. May God bless you to weather through this storm. I wish you beautiful rainbows to follow.
All the comments left for you are so beautifully written. Remember whatever has reached you has past through Gods hands first. So He has allowed it, like you said, most likely for refining. You will come out if this victorious once He has taught you and your loved ones whatever He’s trying to show you. I’m praying for you now. Gods blessings always 🙂
So sorry, Cyndi. I will be praying for you. Had a difficult week here seeing some people in our church go through an unexpected death of a loved one. I know it’s hard to see those who are close to you suffer. Sometimes in the ministry it’s not someone else’s family, but your own. That’s when our “faith is really put to the test”. I will be praying especially for you this week.
Praying that our God eases your pain and lifts the burden. Remember: He is carrying you!
Praying for you.
Cyndi, I shared something with my SS class this morning that I can’t get away from. “In the good times, we praise Him. In the bad times, we WORSHIP Him”. Praying for you and your family to draw close to the One who loves you most.
Praying for you and your family….
So sorry, Cyndi! I’ll be praying.
I have known that feeling and while God used it as an incredible time of spiritual growth I wouldn’t ever want to go there again. I will be praying for you and your family.
I am so sorry for your pain Cyndi. I have lifting you up in prayer – I am so thankful we have Christ to cling to in our darkest hours.
I am sorry for your pain Cyndi. I prayed for you this evening. God is walking close to you. Blessings. Susan
Cyndi, sorry for your pain. That is a beautiful song, raw with pain but directing us to God who can heal all pain. Praying for you and your family. I would guess most of us have been through times of hurt and it is so good that we can know that the troubles of this earth are temporary. May God heal your heart.
Lifting you and your family up in prayer…
So sorry to hear you’re hurting. Will be praying for you! Thank you for posting the song.
I am so sorry Cyndi. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Cyndi, so sorry for your hurt. My prayers are with you and your family. My week was one that would never end, even today. The quote, the scripture and the song was just what I needed. Thank you through what you are going through you are still helping others.
Sweetie, you will be in our prayers. God will see you through this. With so many praying for you it will happen. We will pray for Traci and her family too.
God Bless!1
Oh, my! Are you sure I’m not the one who wrote this? As a pastor’s wife to a pastor’s wife, I have said almost (unfortunately or fortunately, depending on how you look at it), the same words. So, I know I cannot tell you anything you haven’t already said to yourself. I wish I could pick up the phone and talk to you… But, for what it’s worth, these are my prayerful thoughts for you… Nothing happpens to God’s children that He hasn’t given permission to happen. It’s how we react that shows our true character and we must always ask “What it is it He wants me to learn from this?”. At times I’ve felt like Job, although I am not worthy to compare myself to this saint. If you haven’t already, read the Psalms and the Sermon on the Mount. They bring me great comfort. As a pastor’s wife I feel at times there is so much I can’t share openly, realizing the place God has put me in, so I try to humbly accept it and ask for His grace to endure. I realize I am preaching to the choir, so know you are not alone and thank you for allowing ALL your followers to share your burden!
In Christ, terry
I am so sorry that you and those close to you are hurting. You are strong, and your faith is strong. You and your family will get through this with the Lord’s help.
Praying for you and your family in Jesus name.
So sorry. Praying for you and your family.
Praying for you and your family!!
Oh, how God loves you and all your precious ones. God bless you, my sweet friend. I love you!
What a powerful song to sing when we are powerless. Please Lord, help Cyndi and her family now.
Cyndi, sometimes, no words are best. I am praying for you.
Oh my sweet friend – I feel like so many of us are being assaulted by evil and pain. Yes, fix your eyes on Jesus the great Comforter. Praying for you and yours … Xo Heidi
I am truly so sorry you have this challenge. Your and your sister’s blogs have been such a blessing being able to read from believing women has meant so much to me and you have been in my prayers already but will certainly add your new challenge to the prayers.
God Bless you and yours.
Cyndi, God knows your pain, and will give you and yours the strength to carry on through heartache. I speak from painful experience. Just know that you have hundreds of prayers going up for you, from friends you know, and friends like me– those whom you have never met, but who still care deeply.
In Him,
Sandi
Praying for you and your family. I doesn’t matter that you won’t or care to share what is going on with everyone, God knows and that is all that matters. Keep your eyes on Him and He will get the glory in the end. God bless you.
Cyndi-
My heart truly grieves for you and your family. Often times….hurtful situations affecting those closest to us send us reeling……yet…..HE is there. In the midst of the tears….the anger…..the pain…the worry…..the doubt…..he is there.
God will ALWAYS turn our pain into HIS purpose….and my prayer for you is that as you struggle to take a step to move forward…..his grace will be sufficient for you!
Remember….this trial/situation has not caught God by surprise…..not is he wonder what he’s going to do….instead….he bids you to come into him…..and he WILL make a way….where there seems to be no way.
Gripping the hem of HIS garment…..on behalf of you and your precious family today, and in the days and weeks to come!
Love ya,
Kim
Even in the pain of your darkest days, Cyndi, you are able to reach out and support others. Thank you for sharing this beautiful song and your heart felt message. Sending up prayers for you and yours.
Praying for you! Whatever is wrong your GOD is bigger and LOVES and CARES for you and the wounded more!
You will be in my prayers.
Hugs to you and your family. I pray that The Lord blesses you through this hurt. Getting to the other side of pain is sometimes a long journey. Knowing that He is always there for you is sweet comfort. Something I have learned through pain is not to let the pain define who I am and to not give the pain the power to dictate my actions. I have had much pain in my life recently due to jealous actions of others. I had to learn that their actions and words are a reflection of them not me. I truely believe through reading your blog that you are close to God and He is right there holding you close. I was looking for a particular scripture but what I kept finding was something different than what I thought I should share, Devine Intervention ! I will leave you with the verse so you can find comfort in digging into your Bible to read this. Lamentations 3:22,23.
Precious one, I am praying for you. Your transparency makes you real and more believable. Keep clinging to Jesus.
Hi Cyndi
I just recently found your blog through stitch fix, and what attracted me aside from learning how to tie a scarf, is your quiet inner beauty that can only come from a commitment to nurture your relationship with a God I am just beginning to understand. Your humility, grace, and vulnerability to reach out and trust Him to give you the strength to face your struggle is very admirable and encouraging to others. I am sorry you are hurting and hope this storm will pass soon.
Seeing the ones we love hurt is so painful. Keeping you and your family my prayers. God will see you through!
I am so sorry. Praying for you.
Our God is an awesome God!
Prayers for you and your family Cyndi. Beautiful song that had tears welling up in my eyes as I listened to the words and thinking how much lighter our hearts are when we cast all our cares on HIM, for HE cares for us. Hugs to you.
My heart is tendered toward you and yours so much as I read this. When you have endured this type of pain, you feel so deeply for others going through it. In my time of deepest hurt God sent others into my life who too, had experienced such pain and it was such a tremendous encouragement to see they had not only endured but grown stronger. Having the opportunity to comfort others is one of the ways God redeems what He has allowed us to go through. So grateful that already you know in the marrow of your bones that despite the depth of the ache in your heart, you know the Lord is with you and at work in every way to bring about His good in a heartbreaking situation. You and your family will be in my prayers.
Prayers for you and your family.
I am praying for you and your family. God will get you all through this difficult time.
Cyndi you know this but its always good to be reminded. Where two or more are gathered in His name He is there. Cast all your burdens on Him for He cares for you. You have many praying for you including myself. The Lord will carry you through. In Christ’s love my sister.
I am going through a similar situation. Someone I love has had their heart pulled out of their chest and stomped on!! It is so hard seeing them going through this. Praying for them and I will certainly be praying for your situation also.
Praying for you, Cyndi. God hears us. He loves when we join in prayer for each other. Big hugs to you.
Hugs
Beautifully written Cyndi, praying that your challenges pass.
Oh Cyndi, my heart hurts for you right now. I am lifting you in prayer. May God bring peace and comfort to you and your family.
love and prayers to you Cyndi
Praying for you this morning. I have been through times like this. I love it when the Word says when we don’t know what to pray that the Holy Spirit intercedes our groanings.
there will be a day when the burdens of this place will be no more and we’ll see Jesus face to face– Jeremy Camp “There Will Be a Day”….
praying for you!
Praying for you .
So sorry you’re going through this. Have been experiencing some painful situations in my own life lately and looking for answers and solutions, so knew exactly what you meant when you said felt like your heart had been stomped on. Thinking of you. Keep the faith!
Cindi, you will be in my prayers today and this coming week. I don’t need to know details to pray for you. God knows all the hurts of your heart. Continue to lean on Him.