I should be calling her on the phone and talking about our plans for the weekend or asking her what she wants me to bring to eat for Christmas Eve at her house. We should be meeting at the mall and catching up on the gifts we’ve bought and the ones we still have to buy.
But we’re not.
It’s my second Christmas without my Mom. I don’t know what to say except I miss her terribly! I wonder when and if the aching I feel inside will ever go away?
It hasn’t yet.
Today I will take a wreath and place it on her grave. I know she’s not there. But I’m drawn there……… I’m drawn there because that is the last place I saw Mom’s physical body. The body I hugged and kissed and loved.
But. One. Day.
I will see her again, not because she was a good person. Not because she was kind or well liked but because she believed in Jesus Christ (John 3:16) and so do I.
I know this time of the year can be difficult for many people.
But you are not alone.
God loves you.
He knows your hurts and your pains.
He really does care.
“Casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
If you are having a difficult Christmas I would be honored to pray for you…..just leave me a comment or email me at cyndispivey(at)gmail.com.
Walking in His Grace,
YES! YES!!! Thank God for the hope we have! It is not vain, and so we can rest in it.
Love you!
Cyndi,
Sorry for your pain. I am just starting all this (grief, sadness,etc…) My Mom passed away this year on Nov. 9th 2010.
One Month Ago and it seems like forever since I got to talk to her and see her.
I have already had My First Thanksgiving without her,it was so lonely. She was our LAUGHTER! my best friend, shopping buddy etc…
I am married, but never had Children, so my Mother & I were VERY CLOSE. All the Holidays were always at Mom’s house. I dread even thinking about Christmas, we always went over on Christmas Eve for gifts & a party and back again on Christmas Day for our meals together. I MISS HER SO MUCH !!
I cry a lot…even though I am 56 I feel orphaned.
I have enjoyed you sharing about your Mother on you blog and keeping her memory alive. Please Pray for us…and I will keep your family in my Prayers.
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU & YOUR FAMILY!
SANDY
My favorite song about heaven and being re-united with our loved ones is “Hello After Goodbye” by Legacy Five. Sooooo good! I can’t wait to see my Paw Paw again!
xxhugsxx to you and Traci during this Christmas season!
Thank you for putting a wreath on Mom’s grave. You are the best. 🙂
I’m sorry Cyndi. I know the pain of this having lost my Mom. Holidays can be hard. This is my second Christmas since my husband left me and it’s better than last year was but still can be hard. Thanks for being a prayer warrior!! I’ll be praying for you!
Cyndi I will keep you in my prayers.
Thank you so much for those words-I needed them today!x
Oh, girl…I wish we lived closer…I’d love to sit and chat with you over coffee. It has not been an easy season. For reasons different than I ever expected. I’m praying for you and Traci!
Oh friend…my heart TRULY aches for what you are feeling! Praying that God’s LOVE fills your heart today.
Love ya…
Kim~
please pray for a young mom named Erica who lives in Wilsonville Oregon. Her husband passed away the day before Thanksgiving. He was on a heart transplant list waiting…
They have two sons ages 8 and 4. The life of adjustment is before her and with the holidays it is more difficult.
So glad that I can know that my loved ones are in heaven and I will be reunited with them one day! 🙂 Praise God for His love and salvation!
I’m so sorry for your heartache! And I’m rejoicing with you in our Hope!